dreamers

The other day, I mentioned to someone older that I was unhappy in my job and that I was looking elsewhere, maybe even changing careers altogether ( sometimes I fantasize about becoming a landscape designer). This person scoffed and replied with a comment about how this generation is never happy and is always searching for something else, wasting their time dreaming about something better. She made it sound like it was unrealistic and immature to not be able to "decide" what you want to be in life. And that all of this wishy washy back and forth searching for something else was a waste of time.

My response was that their generation ( the baby boomers) simply just accepted their crappy job or crappy situation in life and just kept doing it because they thought they had to. Or maybe because they thought that's just what you did, what people had done for years and why change it?
The conversation continued on, I was really kind of irritated about it. Why is it so weird that someone doesn't want to do the normal thing? Why is it wrong that I keep wanting to go back to school to learn something different? Why does the idea of going to the same job every day until retirement scare the hell out of me and make me want to run screaming in the other direction?

I look around at the older men I know/knew who busted their asses going to a job they didn't particularly like, usually sitting in horrible traffic every single day, because they had/have to. They have children and a wife and a mortgage. The finally get what they want forty years later when the children are grown, the house is paid off and they can finally retire. I don't want that. I don't want to wait and wait for that big day to come and then I'm too old and tired to enjoy it. I want my whole life to be enjoyable. I don't want to live for the weekends. I want to jump out of bed in the morning and say "I cant wait to go to work today!!"


Is that too much to ask?