Today is Wednesday. The day before my four day weekend.
I'm taking off Thursday and Friday.
I have to.
For my own sanity.
I've been hating some of my classes so much. I actually despise, yes DESPISE, my first block. When they start to walk in at 8:30, I just can't stand the sight of them. They are just so whiny, lazy, obnoxious, rude, disruptive, and at times, very ignorant. They argue with each other, "play" fight, and talk too loud about the most trivial things.
Not all of them of course. There is a handful in that class that are really cool kids. But I swear the counselors were playing a joke on me when they registered this one class. That group of misfits that I deal with is absurd.
So, before I explode with frustration, I am going to remove myself from the environment and take some time off to mentally refresh. I am going to reflect and try to remember why I'd wanted to start teaching in the first place because I seem to have forgotten the reason. Lately, I've been trying to figure out if I even want to continue teaching after this year. I can't take much more of it. The workload, the stress, and the behavior of the students has really been negatively affecting me.
You know, I found out this summer that I grind my teeth. The ortho said it could be stress related. I've never in my life been told by anyone that I grind my teeth! I also don't sleep well. I toss and turn all night. My mind just won't let go of what has to be done at work.
I once came up with a LIST of everything I do as a high school art teacher.
I have three career fantasies that keep me occupied:
1. Teaching job at a private school. I tried last year, but only one resume resulted in an interview
2. Go back to school to get an MFA. I'd be able to teach at the college level and I'd look better on paper
when trying to get that private school gig.
3. Start my own business, a pottery studio. Doing what I do best, teaching people how to throw.
What to do.....
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